| Bio: | Who is God to you? Who is Jesus in your eyes? For 21 years, that was not a question of which I truly ever though of asking myself. Brought up in a Christian household, Jesus was someone of which was an acquaintance of mine through childhood. At eleven to thirteen years of age, God began to pull at my heart. Accepting Jesus into my heart, I then decided to 'try out' being a Christian. However, even then...I knew nothing of what it truly meant to be one or truly who my Savior was. Prayer was something of which time and faith was placed at that age. Unfortunately, faith in prayer at that time was based on what prayers were answered and if they were answered how I wanted. Then...I did not know what it was like to seek God's Will. So when my hero, beloved family member...my grandmother passed away God was put on trial in my heart.I just could not see that God had indeed answered in a way that I had requested...though perhaps not the manner in which my heart desired most. Blinded by grief, doubt, as well as anger and resentment God was not a solid part of my life until around the time I was nineteen years of age. During my first year in college, I encountered a young man who was an agnostic. He asked many questions. Numbers of which I had not an answer to provide him. My own faith was in question, for when I knew not where to look and found not the answers without relying on God to reveal them to me....I stopped having faith. Sin and temptation became rather close friends in my life. Took nearly two years to begin to make my way out of that. While engaged to the wonderful man in which now I am currently married...he witnessed to me. Reminding me...urging me...encouraging me to seek God again. Attending church one morning, something amazing happened. Not only was I begining to see God in a whole new light...but my whole life direction began to change. From high school on to college, there was no stronger desire within my heart than to write. So when God called me...to minister..I was conflicted. Like Moses...I pondered, why me? Who am I? My thoughts too were on what I had wanted for my life. Even then...my thoughts were selfish. God though...when He calls and wants you to serve, will mold and make you. Jesus will completely change your life if we as people, merely just open our hearts and let Him in. So the only question that remains and that we all should ask ourselves is.... Got Jesus? |
